Dear Prashanthiny

Dear Shanti,

Out of sudden, I feel like I really miss you. I was scrolling through my gallery in my laptop and I saw lots of our pictures together and it makes me miss you more. For 1 year, you were my strength in office. I still remember that I want to resign but you don't want me to quit, so I keep on fighting. *you know what's the issue :P but, I'm really sorry because I can't fight in the battle anymore. I lost. I decided to quit. But I really miss you :( it was hard for me at first to continue my days without you. :( and now when I know you're not okay, I feel more sad! :'(

You were there when I need you. You made me happy every single day with your silly jokes. You made me forget all of the dramas in office with your laughs. You treat me food because you know I love to eat :'D but most important is, you help me when I was broke. You lend me your money when I had no money at all to eat and for petrol. You always remember me when you buy ice-cream. :') you just stay silent when I was mad although I know I shouldn't be mad to assistant BIC XD you listen to my advice when needed. You got free love consultation from me too. :> I miss all of those moments! :( 

I'll put some pictures of us :')

Selfie with those silly face will always be our trademark. Haha.

Bollywood day with you. Remember? :')

I rarely hug you but perhaps I know that I'll be leaving, so it was good to have a picture of me hugging you :')

 Memories being created. Alhamdulillah for every good memories <3

Dear Shanti,

If you're reading this, please know that I love you, always. Although we're from different religion and race, but I really love you. I feel like you're my sister from another mother and father. :')

Shanti, life could knock us sometimes. It is our choice whether to stay down or wake up and build a new life. I know that you're having a bad situation now, but please know that this is just a phase. We will overcome it someday.

Do you remember when I was crying alone because of Afiq mistakenly bank in the money? I was crying, upset, angry and many more. But what would happen if I continue on crying something that could not be returned? Am I wasting my tears or not? Yes, I wasted my tears. I had cried for something that couldn't be mine. This is about money.

But please know that before this I also had my first love. And I lost it. It took me 2 years to move on. Moving on doesn't mean you had stopped crying. Moving on means you can totally forget your love. So, it really takes time. It was a waste for me to cry to something that couldn't even be mine. Losing someone doesn't mean you're lost. But it simply means "you deserve better, honey"

Last but not least, you will always have my shoulder if you need anything. Kajang and Bangi ain't that far though :p you can always whatsapp me if you need someone. You can share anything with me. I'm your personal consultant, remember? :* please bear in your mind that I will always support and love you no matter what happened. Okay? xoxo :)

Selesai ditulis pada 1:50 PM, 29 November 2016, Selasa.

Belum Bersedia :(

Assalamualaikum fellas :)

I teringat hari tu masa lepas engagement day I tamat, Makcik Pakcik I semua dah tanya tentang wedding preparation. Gosh! Totally not ready :(

Makcik I ada tanya lah tentang tema warna, katering, andaman, make up and etc pasal preparation and korang tahu tak apa I punya jawapan kat Makcik I? "Hehehe, belum fikir lagi Makcik." and Makcik macam puzzled and terus suruh I fikir cepat-cepat :(

Lepas tu I tengok kawan I punya preparation untuk majlis dia bulan 1 tahun depan and dia banyak dah siap. Masa dia list out the preparations, I terus jadi takut. Hahaha. XD Takdelah, cuba korang bayangkan, I took about 7 months to prepare for my engagement day. And now kahwin? *terkejut*

Then I ada lah survey apa perlu buat. Kena siapkan dokumen bagai semua, kena naik turun pejabat agama. Pergh. Memang sangat banyak urusan. And how I wish kahwin tu just akad nikah je without perlu fikir all of those kursus, documentation, persetujuan semua tu. Silly me XD

Paling tak boleh blah, I cakap kat Makcik I, "Hehe, nak rehatkan otak dulu jap. Majlis tunang baru je habis Makcik. Hehehe." Terus Makcik I marah cakap "Hey, mana boleh! Start dari sekarang dah kena fikir supaya tak kelam kabut. Setahun tu tak lama tahu? Takde takde, kena fikir cepat-cepat lepas tu boleh bincang dengan Makcik." and I sangat sedih. Sobs sobs. Betul juga apa Makcik cakap, sekarang dah sebulan setengah lepas I bertunang. Cepat je masa berlalu :(

But I belum bersedia :'( Pray for me guys. Doakan I terbuka pintu hati untuk cepat-cepatkan fikir tentang preparation wedding I nanti :') Buat masa sekarang, biar lah I and encik tunang fokus kumpul duit untuk kahwin dulu. Hihi. :') Till here, see you again :)

Selesai ditulis pada 3:11 pm, 12 November 2016, Sabtu.

Jauh di Mata, Dekat di Hati

Assalamualaikum fellas :)

Hari nie I taknak cakap panjang sangat since I'm out of ideas but then I macam teringat tentang satu perkara nie yang setiap manusia akan hadapi benda nie. :')

It's about friendship. Bila kita semakin meningkat dewasa, kita akan semakin berkurang kawan. Kawan still kawan but you rarely have time with them since masing-masing dah busy dengan life masing-masing. Ada yang busy dengan studies, ada yang busy dengan business, ada yang busy dengan kerjaya dan juga ada yang terbatas kerana jarak dan masa.

To be honest, I have a lot of friends since I nie banyak bertukar sekolah. Haha. I have my childhood friend yang duduk setaman dulu but until now dah lost contact. Kawan-kawan sekolah rendah pun banyak yang dah lost contact but not really because I've been updated about them in social medias. Same goes to Badlishan's friends and friends from Kesuma. Itu belum cakap pasal kawan-kawan kat kolej dan kawan-kawan biasiswa lagi. Haha. And not to forget, kawan-kawan satu company! :D

But somehow, I never forget about them. I rasa happy sangat bila tengok perkembangan hidup kawan-kawan I. Mana yang baru habis study and konvo :') yang baru bertunang :* dan tak lupa juga ada yang dah hantar jemputan perkahwinan, but Penang is way too far for me :'( Teringin nak pergi wedding kawan-kawan kat utara, tapi apa I boleh buat, too far. Nak pergi pun terpaksa fikir banyak kali dengan keadaan ekonomi merudum sekarang nie :( and, paling rare jugak ada yang kawan-kawan sebaya I dah ada anak and ada yang dah ada 3 anak! Haaa, see.

Dah jadi various group of friends kan? Daripada yang still study sampai lah yang dah beranak-pinak. Hihi. But no matter what, I miss all of them. Sometimes I rasa macam nak ulang balik ke masa lalu just to cherish moments with them. But, life must go on.

Dear all my friends, tak kisah lah yang rapat ke or biasa je, we're still friends and I really miss you guys. I kat sini sentiasa doakan yang baik-baik untuk korang and insyaAllah, may Allah bless all of you always :* please know that I tak pernah lupakan korang pun walaupun ada yang kenal dari darjah 1 hihi. Korang jauh di mata tapi dekat di hati. Best of luck in whatever you're doing now and I doakan semoga semua urusan korang dipermudahkan dan dibagiakan selalu oleh-Nya. Till here, assalamualaikum :)

Selesai ditulis pada 11 November 2016, 1:32 pm, Jumaat.